It has been a year since I wrote anything. I felt I should at least visit you sometime so here I am. So currently its about 3 am in the morning I can't sleep because I am really not sleepy and kind of lonely. Well, lucky I have Baileys to accompany at such times. So, I don't think I even did anything yesterday. All I did was watch tv and play some random online games to pass time. At night, went to pay bills and get some fresh air. 

School will start on Monday. I have mixed feelings. I am kind of happy that I will be learning new stuff but also quite anxious on what type of classmates I would get. Luckily, there are two of my old classmates. Hopefully all of us can get along well with no big problems. I am sad that I have to wake up early and I am so gonna be tired during the first week of school. So today, I guess I would be still rotting at home, watching tv or something. Maybe I would go out to buy sour sweet. I don't even know what time I am going to wake up. I don't find any point in waking up early either but I should really try waking up earlier. If I wake up earlier, I would  feel sleepy earlier and won't have trouble sleeping a day before school starts. On Saturday, there seem to be some prayers at home. So, I can't wait to see my cousins and eat the various food.

Current mood: Sad and lonely
I always wished I have a friend. But no one really stays there for me. I guess I am going to be like forever alone with no friend. Hahaha. No one really thinks of me as important anyway. I am just like another option. I feel hurt waiting for you to talk to me but you seem to be too busy with something else. It is really sad to see this. Why give high hopes when you are just going to shatter it all in the end? Sometimes, I just want it to all to end and that I will stop caring. But I can't stop caring. How to even stop? Maybe things would be much better if I take things easy and not bother at all. But I can't stop thinking or having to bother :( Good luck to myself. 

Goodnight.