Ugh, I am so tired of crying. I don't know what to do. My heart says it is better to stay and just keep getting hurt because I'd rather feel hurt than feel empty but however actually, the best for me would be to forget everything and learn to be alone and be on my own again. Whenever I try to move on, you come back and all my efforts of moving on literally fails. Omg, why does my life really suck man? I wish like I never knew you and I would be so happy right now but now, all I think of is you. I need to be happy again, not depending on you for happiness because whenever I do, I would be the opposite of happy and I get disappointed all over again.

I want to be happy and not have any negative thoughts :(